tired of being lost...

for all those souls out there that know me, at least a little bit, know that i have been searching quite sometime for something outside the idea of a house and stability... humm, but now what is it i seek? a house and stability! albeit half way around the world, and on the other side of the equator, just barely... call me switters, man oh man, i wish i had the forethought to say some such thing to my grandparents... call me marcinczyk, that just does not roll off the toungue all those silly consenents in a row... sometime's c?
so after deciding 100% on moving to hawaii, a few disappointments later, 100% on Nicaragua, here i am in the small town of seminyak in southern bail... without really any clue as to where or how i am going to be living... a bit of background for those of you reading this that do not know me or know my latest flounderings around the world...
spent my last day in my office in nj about a month ago (was going to figure out the date, but really is it significant?, esp. after my 3rd bintang basar!)...

well, it all started with a drive to the airport from my one and only dear sister meghan... although maybe we are not as close as brother/sister could be, meghan and i probably relate to, or maybe empathize with each other more than anyone else... flew solo (because im a dumpshit, and booked the wrong day after canceling the "right" day thinking it was wrong, and paying a surcharge for it...)... met some old and new friends in nicaragua for a few days/weeks, waves were fun, and was great that no one got hurt (we are getting old - and probably do not surf as much as we all would want!) - was the first trip ive had wearing contact lenses, so am not sure what the cause was, but ended up most of the time looking out for my friends in the water than trying to make sure that i was getting in the best position for the best waves... probably a bit of everything combined, as everything seems to be...

lets see, am getting a bit tired of typing/thinking... quickly, stayed longer than everyone else in nic - go some waves, saw some things, but was not great in any stretch of anyones imagination... caught no fish!!!! i will catch fish here!!!
spent a week in sandiego and surfed a day in baja - again nothing great, but a few fun ones (actually only in mex, in ca - was total shit, at least is what i thought of it...).
after ca, flew to singapore for work, worked.... singapore is a weird place, probably the cleanest city in the world, but it seems to be masking much under the surface...
now in bali - hope this place connects with me, just need to give it some time for once!